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你是不是有一種經驗
                                                                               
                                                                               
當年一起瘋社團成發,一起衝網咖的死黨,現在連電話都不知道還是否能打通?
                                                                               
當年一起歡笑,一起辦活動的夥伴,如今都已各奔東西?
                                                                               
當年一同在魔鬼營K聯考,
                                                                               
        在圖書館拚期中期末考,
                                                                               
        在補習班準備研究所考試的戰友,如今要聚首都還要3個月前就連絡?
                                                                               
                                                                               
前男/女朋友那時曾經還在許多地方留下美麗回憶   如今他在哪裡你卻已經不知悉
                                                                               
那段戀情也曾瘋狂曾讓你悲傷,但那個讓你牽掛的人終究還是離去
                                                                               
                                                                               
說好的幸福
                                                                               
說好的環島

說好的一起到老
                                                                               
說好的永遠手牽手走著
                                                                               
說好了每天抱著我數星星[1]
                                                                               
那些曾經說好的    為什麼終究像是沒有說好一樣
                                                                               
                                                                               
如果你遇見誰誰都只能陪你轟轟烈烈一小段
                                                                               
那究竟會有誰能夠陪我們揚一世人的船帆?
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
如果週遭的人都像是流水一樣終究不會一輩子陪伴你
                                                                               
那我們究竟要依靠著什麼繼續走下去?
                                                                               
                                                                               
如果所有的開始終要結束

                                                                               
那為什麼還要繼續我們的旅途?
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
「世界上有什麼不會失去的東西嗎?我相信有,你也最好相信。」
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
六年前我在村上春樹<1973年的彈珠玩具>看到這段話之後,
                                                                               
我開始找這個不會消失的東西
                                                                               
一直以來,我都在想,世界上是不是存在一種不會消失的感情
                                                                               
幾年下來,我念過哲學系,去過教會,後來輾轉到了心理系
                                                                               
在哲學系得到的唯一體會是:
                                                                               
天下如果有不會變的東西  那大概就是"變"這件事情本身(赫拉克力圖如是說)
                                                                               
而心理系常常又只負責解釋不負責解決

                                                                               
直到去了一場迎新演講,出乎意料的感動[2]。
                                                                               
講師播了這支影片,雖然我古時候曾經看過,但是重新看一次,才發現有不同的體會
                                                                               
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDgzMExxI6k&feature=related
                                                                               
人的一生中許多人曾陪你走過,
                                                                               
但都只是一段
                                                                               
我們當然可以因為先前的人消失而惆悵,
                                                                               
            因為夥伴停下來而裹足,
                                                                               
            因為緬懷著美麗的曾經而不斷回首
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
但是終究,要Keep Walking
                                             

                                                                               
因為唯一不會消失的,是自己堅持走下去的決心
                                                                               
就算只有自己一個人,也要走到最後。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
畢竟,那些曾經出現在生命中的夥伴未曾消失,
                                                                               
只是化為另一種形式,陪伴你走剩下的人生
                                                                               
也畢竟,只有持續一直走,才能遇到新的夥伴,
                                                                               
遇到更好的人,遇到願意在人生的其他時刻陪你走上一段的人<盧玫竹,2010>。
                                                                               
哪怕指是一起走去搭車的15分鐘也好,他都在你的生命中留下不可抹滅的足跡。
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
此文獻給並感謝那些20多年來曾經陪我走過的人(阿~不小心透漏年紀)
                                                                               
更感謝與珍惜還在我身邊與我一起走的人
                                            

                                                                               
因為有了你們,我才能更有勇氣地走下去
                                                                               
                                                                               
我也才能在往後就算沒有人陪伴的時候,還是能堅持不放棄地走下去。
                                                                               
每當我快要走不動的時候,
                                                                               
就想著還有許多曾經禍福與共的朋友,正在後方揮手,看著我們,為我們加油
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
是的,沒有人會消失,
                                                                               
即使當初共譜的夢想無法再一起完成
                                                                               
只要你堅定的走下去,連他們的份一起達成,就沒有一個人會消失。
                                                                               
                                                                               
村上兄,
                                                                               
或許,這就是你所謂"不會消失的東西"吧。


 

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